My faith was tested on 28 January 2006, the day I lost my mom.

It was a Saturday morning when I suddenly heard my sister calling for help, when I ran over to see
what was happening. Then the thing I feared most, my mom, it couldn’t be, no, wait, she just looks
tired. She steadily looked at me as I held her hand, not sure what to do, I just said its going to be ok
mom I’ll get help, you’ll be fine. I then desperately ran over to get my husband and after 1 minute,
when I returned, there she was, her eyes closed, her body lifeless. When the emergency unit arrived,
they tried to revive her, but nothing. It all happened so fast! It was the worst thing that ever
happened to me. I screamed! Sobbed! But she was gone forever.

I remember feeling so angry, lonely, empty and regretful. I’ve lost my purpose for life and regretted
not being the daughter I could’ve been. I remember feeling angry at myself for not spending enough
time with her, not always being there when she needed me. I could’ve done more!
The following Saturday after her funeral, being in my house just felt cold and miserable. We couldn’t
bear the pain of losing mom, it was extremely difficult at first.
I knew that there was a reason why she had to leave so suddenly. She suffered no illness at all but
she was lonely because in July 2004 my dad passed on. I prayed to God to ease the pain and
suffering of losing her. I yearned to see her one more time, to touch her skin, to hold her hand and
to just lay my head on her shoulder for another day. I could hardly breathe, my heart was heavy and then
I went into depression and I knew that it was the feeling of anger, regret and sorrow.

As I prayed and asked God for comfort and strength, it became more bearable. I realized then that
God hears the prayers of a broken heart and heals that which no man can.
A few months later I had a dream about her where she was walking tall holding my sister’s hand over
a pedestrian crossing. She looked happy and on the go as she once was. That dream meant
everything to me. On another occasion a few years later, still feeling the emptiness and longing to
feel her nearness, I was walking down the passage in our house and suddenly heard her voice
whispering my name.

I still encounter her presence and give thanks to God for revealing her to me as that is as significant
to me as the memories I had with her.
My reason for writing this story is to tell you that it takes time to heal. That God knows our pain and
sorrow. He carries us through difficult times and we only have to put our complete trust in Him. The
loneliness, anger and regret faded. I became whole again and I learned to appreciate more, live for
now and put God first. Prayer is power, it is our way of communicating with God and through this my
emotional needs are fulfilled.
Today 15 years ago she was called home.

Written 28 January 2021

my favorite items this holiday season

Here are a few of my favorite things that I absolutely love! Simple and basic things that might steer you into the direction of what to get your lady or best friend for Christmas or any day!

So these items are my everyday kind of items that gives me that boost of confidence – even at the beach or a trip to the shopping mall! And some extra for your home, try it – You’ll love it!

The Badgirl Uptown Ladies Sunglasses will give you the feels into holiday mode whether you’re out to shopping or a day out to the beach.

The Marique Yssel Leggings Black is the ultimate in leisure wear! Soft and stretchy in beautiful natural fibre Cotton Spandex. Very comfortable to wear and the fabric is breathable and not static – wearable through all seasons.

Dash into summer with this nice crotchet Blackcherry Beige Fishing Net Shoulder Bag. It’s stylish and makes a statement when you step out on an evening out.

The Rimmel Lasting Finish Lipstick in Amethyst Shimmer is super easy to apply, staying for up to 8 hours on your lips. 25% high colour impact. Smooth creamy texture for comfortable wear all day long. The only challenge though, Wearing your mask will hide the look completely, but hey, you’ll have to take some selfies right?

The Summer Sun Straw hats are very good quality straw hats with an adjustable band inside. It has a wide brim with “do not disturb” embroidered into the straw. The hat size fits all and lounging around the swimming pool or at the beach will send a clear message! LOL!

Since the very first time I bought this perfume, I never looked back. Paco Rabanne Lady Million was created by the house of Paco Rabanne with perfumer Anne Flipo and released in 2014. A wonderful edition to the Lady Million fragrance collection. A tropical fruity floral perfume that is certainly a winner. Still one of my top favorite perfumes!

The Blomus Scented Candle will turn your living room into an oasis of wellbeing. It creates a delightfully relaxed atmosphere with its Soft Linen fragrance.
The characteristic concrete look in a velvety, dark grey tone gives the lightly scented candle a unique touch. The perfect gift for someone you care about.

I hope you enjoyed my Blog post and feel free to comment or like! Seasons greetings and Stay safe!


Face masks are the perfect skin care treatment to help you with your skin care concerns. The right face mask can help hydrate skin, remove excess oils and help improve the appearance of your pores. They’re also an excellent way to help pull out impurities.

Recently I tried the  Skin Republic 2 Step Double Action and I was surprised to see that The brightening and radiance enhancing serum helps reduce the appearance of age spots and imperfections for a bright and even skin tone and leaving me with a soft and fresh look.

For the longest time I’ve had dry lips and always have to use a lip balm or some kind of protection so that it stops me from pulling or biting on the dry skin, which I know is quite gross. I’ve come across this intensely hydrating and replenishing Lip Moisturiser that is based on Organic Royal Jelly, Shear Butter, Mango Butter, Ginseng and Sweet Orange Essential Oil. The sweet fragrant lip serum is formulated with nourishing ingredients to penetrate and condition the delicate lip area and create a barrier to protect against seasonal elements. It offers intensive
hydration and antioxidant protection to lips, helping restore suppleness and preserve the healthy appearance of the skin. You should try it and thank me later!

If you love to have your nails done you will love the Morgan Taylor Professional Nail Lacquer. It gives you an instant salon look and glamorous feel. Morgan Taylor is globally recognized as the crème de la crème of nail color, developed by professionals for you. Their unique color palette knows no bounds, ranging from the classical to avant-garde, and from subtle to unconditionally spectacular. Experience the Morgan Taylor brand. Embrace the colors. Become a part of their world.

Batiste Dry Shampoo is a specially formulated hair refresher with a classic fragrance that helps to remove excess grease and leave your hair feeling and looking clean, fresh and full of body and texture.

Three steps to fabulous hair:
1. Shake can, hold 30 cm from dry hair and spray into roots
2. Massage through with fingertips
3. Brush hair and style as usual

Mushroom & Egg Recipe

Lunch provides energy and nutrients to keep the body and brain working through the afternoon. According to experts, lunch provides nourishment to the body and brain and reduces stress and eating lunch provides a break from the activities of the day and gives energy for the rest of the afternoon.

This quick delicious recipe calls for a mouthwatering appetite and consist of;


  • Crushed garlic, chili & ginger
  • Mixed peppers
  • Mixed Veggies
  • Mushrooms
  • Egg
  • Spinach
  • Paprika
  • Cracker Bread


  • Braise the Crushed garlic, chili & ginger in a tsp olive oil
  • Cut peppers according to your choice and add to the braised garlic mix
  • Add a handful of sliced mushrooms and fry for 5 minutes
  • Add the mix vegetables & spinach – let it steam for about 10 minutes
  • Lastly add the egg and then add a pinch of salt & paprika
  • Close the lid and let it simmer for about 3 minutes
  • Enjoy on cracker bread or wholewheat toast


For many of us, our childhood is something we reflect on with the fondest of memories. Isn’t it strange to think that some of our most treasured possessions aren’t physical possessions at all?

Of course we might have photographs, but the real joy is in the memory itself. Something which lives only in our minds.

When I look back at my childhood, there is so much I could talk about and so many memories but when I stop and think about what I treasure the most from it, it isn’t just one memory, it was more of a way of life. 

The bulk of my childhood memories are in a loving home with my four sisters and brother, mom and dad. I am the youngest of six siblings and loved playing outside with friends and anyone who were up for a afternoon of hide and seek, hopscotch, tipcat, skipping rope, netball, softball, handmade scrabble, puzzles, 3 Tins, etc, I’m sure my homies can relate.

All of those things contain beautiful memories, but what I love and miss the most, is just that we were raised to simply BE.

That just waking up in the morning was a blessing. That your day doesn’t have to be packed with activities for you to feel productive or fulfilled. We learned how to entertain ourselves because mom and dad never gave us something to do when we said we were bored…they just sent us outside.

Outside the best and favorite childhood memories took form. I can close my eyes right now and I immediately, with a deep breath, can remember laying on my back on the grass staring at the sky and seeing the clouds forming in little puppies or smiley faces. I remember laying on my back staring at the sky, day dreaming all the time. At night I would stare at the starry skies and watch the shooting stars appear far more than I could ever dream of! It really did! It brought my soul such peace. 

I remember breathing so calmly and so deeply, feeling such a peace when it was me and the great outdoors.

Fast Forward to being a busy mom of two, I am still such a dreamer. When I’m not editing images or cooking dinner or writing a blog, you can often find me staring out of a window, lost in thought, lost in dreams. It’s in those moments, that I remember the finest moments of my childhood. That there were no expectations and no pressure. I didn’t have a lot of friends, so therefore, I never dealt with friends being mean or not accepting me.

My dad worked a 9 to 5 job and for the most part my mom was a stay home hardworking caregiver who taught me most of my skills I have today. As a family, we loved watching our favorite movies, cook and spend time together.

Growing up as the youngest of six siblings I was protected from the rush of the world and it kind of felt like I was living in a bubble. Carefree, happy impulsive and just being me and I loved every minute of it.